oh hello there.
it's been awhile. what's going on?
for the past couple of weeks i've been thinking that i either have to start blogging again, or just close up shop. when you are "on sabbatical" you start thinking about where you could financially trim things and not that hosting this blog costs me a fortune or anything, but if i'm not using it, i have to lose it. know what i mean?
so i'm posting.
time off has been great. it took not working regularly to realize how stressful my job really was. and not stressful in a "omg so many deadlines" kind of way, but more in a quiet, aggravating, depressing, sort of way. if i were a better writer i could describe this feeling of "don't wannas" that sat on my shoulder almost every friggin' day. don't get me wrong. my bosses and colleagues were great. but i had outstayed my welcome. getting laid off was the kick in the pants i needed.
since then i've been resting and also evaluating what my next thing will be. i've been taking advantage of our local work center (or state run employment agency, if you will) and have been pleasantly surprised. i thought it wasn't the type of place for me - well-educated and computer literate - but i was wrong. the help and insight have been invaluable to me. A career assessment test and the Myers Briggs have pretty much confirmed what i already knew - I just was not loving what i was doing because i wasn't suited for it. it doesn't mean that i have to totally change industries or careers, but it does mean that i have to pick and choose more carefully and maybe not jump at the first thing that is offered to me if it isn't totally "right." so there's that.
if you follow me on instagram or tumblr you know i've been getting all artsy-fartsy (with an emphasis on fartsy) and having a great time. i have so much to learn of course. and when i think about how crappy i am i have to remember that i haven't been doing this forever and there's going to be tons of ugly before there's going to be any pretty. my knitting/crocheting and photography were pretty stinky when i first started too. and yes, i just said it. i'm pretty good at those things. no more self-deprecating bullshit.
ok enough with the navel gazing for today.
here's a mediocre photo of a sleeping squirrel. I KNOW! SO DAMN CUTE!